My sister Arina was bugging me to attend this Southern gathering, organized by Ausis. I was really hesitant to go simply because I didn’t know what to expect. It sounds bad, but it’s true. However, I pulled it together and went ahead, hoping to find something, if not something good, perhaps just a little bit of fun.

The last few days (maybe 2 weeks) before  I was so stressed up. It was mostly related to my decision of going to Australia without my Eddie and worrying about how it’s going to change my life. I was mostly worried that it might change me for the worse, without family around to guide me and keep me in the right path. I didn’t even know whether I can be better, because I don’t know how to be better on my own. So I thought.

Nonetheless, the program made me change my intention of going to Aussie, to a much better intention. And surprisingly, I felt calmer, and happier. In fact, I feel very excited. My intention now is to not only study in Australia but also, to find something that I might not able to find in Malaysia. I hope to find hidayah from Allah. If I don’t find it there, it should be a start of something.

I’m going to be 22 in 8 months, and I’m married. I have to change now if we were to start a family. It will happen sooner or later, and I would never want to bear a child when I don’t have taqwa. I used to be afraid to have taqwa, and actually I’ve always rejected the idea before. But then I realized that, when you have Allah, you’ll have everything because Allah determines EVERYTHING. He can give you the world and take it back in a blink. So, actually, I don’t know what I was afraid of.

Anyway, I’m very thankful that I attended the gathering. It was very profound. I had a lot of fun and met a lot of awesome cool people. Although the 3 days was short, and I felt like going home on the first night (had to sleep on a bunk bed with 7 other girls in a room and all that, yeah) but it was so much fun knowing them, they are beautiful, super nice people and super friendly. I’m just in love with the people I’ve just met. That, rarely happen, ladies and gentlemen.

So, here are some of them…

We are THE amazing people who won the amazing race! woot! hoho.

 In UIA mosque. Beautiful.

In front of UIA mosque yang tak berapa nampak thanks to backlight.

I haven’t known them for long, but I’m already missing them. Weird. Really looking forward to see them again …in Aussie (or maybe NZ, too?) InsyaAllah.

oh yeah, btw, do check out my garage sale at WonderDress.blogspot.com

p.s, also, trying to not swear too much. Bad habit. Eddie’s into it too. InsyaAllah.