My sister Arina was bugging me to attend this Southern gathering, organized by Ausis. I was really hesitant to go simply because I didn’t know what to expect. It sounds bad, but it’s true. However, I pulled it together and went ahead, hoping to find something, if not something good, perhaps just a little bit of fun.

The last few days (maybe 2 weeks) before  I was so stressed up. It was mostly related to my decision of going to Australia without my Eddie and worrying about how it’s going to change my life. I was mostly worried that it might change me for the worse, without family around to guide me and keep me in the right path. I didn’t even know whether I can be better, because I don’t know how to be better on my own. So I thought.

Nonetheless, the program made me change my intention of going to Aussie, to a much better intention. And surprisingly, I felt calmer, and happier. In fact, I feel very excited. My intention now is to not only study in Australia but also, to find something that I might not able to find in Malaysia. I hope to find hidayah from Allah. If I don’t find it there, it should be a start of something.

I’m going to be 22 in 8 months, and I’m married. I have to change now if we were to start a family. It will happen sooner or later, and I would never want to bear a child when I don’t have taqwa. I used to be afraid to have taqwa, and actually I’ve always rejected the idea before. But then I realized that, when you have Allah, you’ll have everything because Allah determines EVERYTHING. He can give you the world and take it back in a blink. So, actually, I don’t know what I was afraid of.

Anyway, I’m very thankful that I attended the gathering. It was very profound. I had a lot of fun and met a lot of awesome cool people. Although the 3 days was short, and I felt like going home on the first night (had to sleep on a bunk bed with 7 other girls in a room and all that, yeah) but it was so much fun knowing them, they are beautiful, super nice people and super friendly. I’m just in love with the people I’ve just met. That, rarely happen, ladies and gentlemen.

So, here are some of them…

We are THE amazing people who won the amazing race! woot! hoho.

 In UIA mosque. Beautiful.

In front of UIA mosque yang tak berapa nampak thanks to backlight.

I haven’t known them for long, but I’m already missing them. Weird. Really looking forward to see them again …in Aussie (or maybe NZ, too?) InsyaAllah.

oh yeah, btw, do check out my garage sale at WonderDress.blogspot.com

p.s, also, trying to not swear too much. Bad habit. Eddie’s into it too. InsyaAllah.

Few days ago, Eddie bought Lumix LX5. It’s pretty awesome point-and-shoot  I’d say. The colours are nice, and it’s very easy to use. Although, like many point-and-shoot, I don’t know how to make the flash work. It just spoils everything.

Anyway, we decided to bring the camera to our Genting trip. It was supposed to be a family outing, but many couldn’t make it as it was the weekdays. So we only went there with Eddie’s lil bro, Edzrin.

I wish I could show comparison with 60D but I don’t have the cable to transfer the photos. Will edit this soon, then. But hey, it’s decent quality if you don’t compare it with dSLR right?

Anyway, another thing I’ve missed about point-and-shoot, is the ability to CAMWHORE. yeaaahhh!

I was very excited to ride the Corkscrew but unfortunately, we went there at the wrong time. The weather condition was pretty bad. The fog was thick and a lot of thrill rides were closed. So we had to fill our time with the family rides while waiting for the thrill rides. 

YES! I’ve done it. My diploma is finally over! I’m happy, but not extremely happy no thanks to my bad performance for this last semester. Surely, I struggled, I almost pulled off my best but it was not enough. I wished I did pull off my best. Then again I would have neglected my newly wedded husband, I can’t deny that.

Anyway, I have nothing much to say now. I’m  probably going to buy a new book on fashion illustration or sewing. And maybe start sewing as soon as I finish the book I’m reading.
Truthfully, I’m still taken aback of what happened this semester. More like upset, really. I feel like I’ve failed my own expectations, and that feeling is not good at all. Let’s see the results soon.

On other note, I hope that I can further degree in Melbourne! It’s a one-year degree for part 1, and I’m not so sure what’s the plan yet, but I’m just gonna go with the flow, and let’s see what happens. Anyway, here’s my final studio work. It’s an extreme park inspired by Plants VS Zombies game. I hope you like it.

I was so nervous as I walked down the stairs to the living room where all the families & guests were. My dad, tok kadi and my then fiancé were in the middle of the room. I sat down at the corner with my beautiful closest friends and watched my then fiancé closely, almost unbelieving. 10th September 2011, marked the day I became a wife, barely a month after my 21st birthday.

20 years old and I already made the biggest decision in my life; to get married. Everybody kept telling me that I’m too young. I had no idea what to expect and how it was going to change my life. For sure, I knew it will change my life a way or another.

After we got engaged, my life went upside down. Our relationship changed, and it was the hardest time of my life. We stumble, we fell, and we fought, hard, most of the time. And I was having inner conflicts with my decision whether or not to go on with the decision. My biggest conflicts were; How? Who? & What?
1. How is this decision gonna change my life;
2. Is he the right person, and;
3. Will I be happy?

He was lost, too. I knew because he became different, and that worsened my doubts but I guess so was I. Throughout the end, we finally burst and  at the edge of breaking up. At that time I thought we were over.

But, I had faith in us, and we’d find ourselves back. And we did. Just two weeks before the wedding, I got him back. I could tell that he knew he got me back.

As he accepted the solemnization, I felt this deep feeling like a kind of happiness I had never felt before. I looked at him like I had never looked at him before. Then, I realized that I found peace within myself. All the doubts and conflicts I had before just went away.

Now, we are savouring each other’s presence. Going to bed and waking up to each other everyday is a bliss. There, my happiest moment in my life was the very moment I became his wife. Surely, this beautiful moment will be cherished forever, thanks to technology.