I think I’m selling myself off for education
Now, another rant. I guess I rant a lot lately. Anyway, to learn how you can make a difference about global warming, skip to the end of this entry.
So you all know that my parents agreed to let me get into college. Well, I have no arguments about that except that I’m secretly having a second thought about it. The fees are freaking expensive. For a Diploma in Advertising Design (the course I’m interested in) costs RM46, 000 for 3 years and the degree program, Degree in Graphics design and Illustration costs RM 86, 000 for 4 years. My mum recommend me to get my degree since when you get the degree, you’ll be working more at the management, which is cool cause I may get to bitch around.
Never mind about the fees because they said they can afford them. So, why the second thought? When it comes to giving out money, my parents are very strict. I get only RM200 per month allowance, (which reminds me I haven’t claimed my allowances for 3 months now) and it’s not easy for them to give me some money for shopping. Once I had to beg for RM300 for my shopping needs. They are not rich. Probably just a little bit more than average.
So, for them to give me a hell lot of money for my education sure is something. No, they brilliantly came up with a condition; to become a better person as a Muslim. and by that they mean:
1. I have to wear hijab.
For those who don’t know, hijab is a shawl that Muslim women use to cover their hair. Anyway, wearing hijab also means no body hugging clothes, ass grabbing jeans and boobs show.
2. Go to the mosque.
At least a few times a week so I’ll get some blessings from god and so all my prayers will be more easily granted.
3. Read the holy Al-Quran
Read it more and more.
Honestly, I have no problem with wearing hijab, I guess. Well, I do wear it most of the times. But honestly, I’m not wearing it sincerely. If you want to smack me because of that, forget it. It’s my life, my grave. :) As for the second one, well… I’m actually lazy? but nevermind, I think I can do that. And about reading the holy Quran more, I can do that too. I’ve been wanting to do that but… to tell you the truth, I haven’t been reading Quran for…. *sigh* and it’s not something I’m proud of.
Well, I did a lot of sins. A LOT, especially in just 3 months. but even so, I have no intention to repent anytime sooner. I will. but not now. I think I should look at this as the bright side. So, this is a start, then?
So, by letting them to get me into college with all these conditions, does that mean that I just sold myself for the sake of education?
No, actually. Scratch everything I said above. The reason why I am having a second thought about getting into college is that, I want to ask them for money. And I don’t want to get “We already invested a lot of money for your education” as a reply to that. I hate being rejected.
Though I prefer private college, I don’t really care if I get into public university, I just want to learn. I really want to learn.
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P.p.s, Someone’s birthday is on his way approximately a week from now. He’s a very special person to me. I want him to have a very meaningful and romantic birthday celebration with me and I already told him to set that day aside for me and him. Any suggestions?
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ok.. lepas baca.. lebih tertarek kat part birthday somebody tu.. he he..
bawak dia ke tempat paling dia suka atau apa yang paling dia suka buat — tapi dia xde masa utk pergi/buat.. =)
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dan, Aisyah sebenarnya lagi hot bila bertudung =)
*ok.. tetiba rasa mcm apa je bg komen berturut2 ni..*
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oh, thanks.
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erm… psl birthday tu, mmg ada terfikir nak buat camtu, except bukan tempat dia suka. tapi tempat yang dia tak suka; indoor theme park. sbb dia takut tinggi. rasa cam nak tengok dia muntah2 naik roller coaster. hahaha. tapi x romantic langsung la. haha :p
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With such amazing talent in designing, I’m actually surprised that you didn’t milk it by doing freelance, at the very least.
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I totally agree with Azrin! I thought you were some super established freelancer! You are so talented with coding and illustration–you’re quite amazing!
I think it is a great thing when people are encouraged to become closer to their religion. I know that my mother is really trying to get me to become closer to our Episcopalian faith, but for some reason, I just do not feel all that close to Christianity as a whole to make those changes to become closer to my faith.
I do admire what you are doing though especially for an amazing education, thinking of the possibilities of what you could do with a degree is the best type of motivation!
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LOL. thanks.you are being very kind. :)
now that you mention it, yeah, that’s the best kind of motivation. plus, the thrill of the challenging job. sweet. :D
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Aww. I know what you mean. My parents feel hard to fork out cash from their pockets, I’m pretty sure when I start law that’ll be the situation as well.
Oh my goodness. You’re a good Muslim compared to me. I haven’t been to mosque in the past two years. Ugh. My parents make it their duty and go every week though. I don’t wear hijab and neither do I read the Qua’ran. I tell my parents once I believe in God it’s enough and I have faith. =/ I’m a lousy person. I need to be more in touch with my religion. Maybe in the next couple of years. =)
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oh I haven’t been to the mosque in a year. or more. so, yeah. It’s kinda hard for me to start going there. and oh, your parents sounded more religious than you.
and I know the feeling of not going to repent anytime soon. but again, we don’t know when we are going to die. today might be our last day. my mum said that to me. i hate it but I have to admit that it’s true.
I feel like I’m being forced to repent. I don’t know, maybe this will lead to something better.
always look at the bright side. hehe.
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Wow about that whole thing about your parents giving you money, but with conditions… I would HATE it if my parents made me do stuff like that, ESPECIALLY with religion(but in a way, they are doing something like that, JUST the religion part, though).
Hmm, for me, I always thought that college and public universities are the same thing… Or are you talking about private colleges/universities?
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yes, I’m talking about private college vs public universities. :p
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Waaa….good la your parent…setting up those 3 cond.
Its good 4 u…really
n if u want to repent…dont delay it…
u never know if you’ll get a piece of tomorrow…
just a humble thought…
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huhu. i quite agree with mohd. ismail. you seems to be prettier when wearing tudung. :)
and about the 3 conditions, my mom also did that when i need money badly. haha! except about the wearing tudung part. :b
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ohhh… that is freaking expensive.
last time my A-levels was RM28k and my degree, RM90k. For the sake of learning. What the heck kan.
RM 118k can get you a comfy ride, but only last a short amount of period. A degree last a life time
No honey, you are not wasting money
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ya ya, aku pun rasa lebih hot jika aisyah bertudung. setuju ngan mael.
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waa.. good for you girl. be a good Muslim, little by little ^^
as for education, yeah, same for me too. i’ll only get money if i stay in school
btw i didn’t know Shen is a muslim. hi Shen.. ^^
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ohh, esok maybe i’ll will off the elektrik.
save the earth everybody ^^
dont forget to do the same everybody ^^V
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:)
ahaha…
aisyah, i only go to the mosque once in a year during hari raya. Thehe, malu je nk citer, but i’m a girl…so, not a big deal sangat kot. And for the hijab’s condition.. i guess, slowly you’ll accept it.
what’s the most important part is, to strictly discipline yourself for solat :)
Been there. Done That. Even worst from yours now.
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Well no… I don’t really think you’re selling yourself out for education. After all, you have to work hard to obtain a good education and that’s what your formula of working hard is, I guess.
Ahh, I hate being rejected for money too. Just make up a long list of how good you’ve been lmao.
Nice joke xD It’s specifically targeted at the Heroes characters, right?
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yeah, you do have a point there. thanks. gosh, being rejected for money is like a complete torture. I just can’t stop being materialistic. LOL.
hehe, thanks about the joke. it’s inspired by Heroes I guess. but I changed the names. the DJs are J.J and Rudy, actually. huhu
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wow, this blog is just so amazing. seriously, I haven’t come across a blog as personalized as urs. truly great. and u have amazing talents too.
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Strive for degree is a good investment for your future more over you’re enjoy it. I hope you are able to perform all the condition given by your parent. As a parent surely they want to make sure you’re doing the right thing and choose the right choice. I’m sure you have a good brain to success on your future undertake.
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hurm, siapalah lelaki bertuah tu agaknye.. besday dia ek.. ala, dia lelaki kan.. u tanye je dia mana tempat paling romantik yg dia nak pergi… its ok kalau itu tak suprise, but better lar dari u bawak dia gi somewhere, then dia tu x sukew.. or buat2 suke n suprise je… haha… hmm, u bf right? or u father.. hihi
pasal pakai tudung, hurm, setuju tak wanita2 zaman skang ni pakai tudung sbb malas nak set rambut atau tak sempat nak set.. tapi bukan semua la.. so macam ni, kalau kesedaran tu ada untuk pakai, just pakai demi kerana Allah.. and kalau rasa x nak pakai, jangan pakai terus.. jgn pakai tudung atas sbb2 keduniaan.. ini yang selalu khai cakap pada my gf.. but dia tu degil lew..
mahal gile la study situ. tp dah namanya college kan.. kalo x nak mahal, nak kene gi university kerajaan le gamaknye….
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hm.. he’s my friend. sort of. hehe. urm.. tak kisah la surprise ke tak. actually nak ajak gi tempat yg leh gila2 sikit baru seronok! hehe. tengoklah camne. thanks
hm.. kalau pakai tudung sebab parents? tak ke sakit tu? haha. biarla. lain orang lain kubur. asal tak berjiran dah. haha.
yeah, mmg mahal. tapu my parents dah ckp fees jgn risau. tp tu je la, tkut diorang ungkit kalau I buat hal. mcm kena perangkap je. sheesh.
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a simple but a thoughtful gift would work wonders for that birthday boy.
really.
but don’t give something that clearly indicates that you had just bought it from some room interior products store in midvalley, mind you… because us boys do go window shopping as well and he might just know where you get it. hehe…
as for your education dilemma… i suggest just follow what your parents suggest, i mean, all they ever wanted for you is the best out of you (haih… i sentences started to not making much sense…), right?
about the hijab wearing thing, well… its a thorny issue to touch as people always claim to me that they do not wear hijab because they don’t feel like wearing it (orang melayu cakap belum sampai seru… stuff like that) but i think its all up to you.
hurm…
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wow your parents really ugut you this time. haha. well, i can see that u can accept their terms & conditions, and thats a good thing.
most of my friends yg x pkai tudung during high school start wearing them during college. I thought, wtf?, isn’t it suppose to be another way around?haha good for them, and you too :)
btw, great new design :)
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yeah. I can accept their conditions. but with hati yang berat. haha. takpelah, one day I can do sincerely. :)
I hope.
oh, thanks. yeah, aisyahrozi.com makin popular. yeah! haha.
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Whoa.. The fees are freaking expensive! :-o I should feel grateful then since I don’t have to pay even a single cent for my education. (But then, I have to serve for the government for 10 years long *sigh*)
Back then, I wasn’t forced to wear hijab. I started to wear when I realised that I wanted to. Some of my friends were forced to wear during their school time and now, some of them ended up not wearing them at all. Errr.. just scratch out whatever I said. Really. I don’t know what I’m saying now. Lol.
Anyway, as you said, just look at the brighter side. You’ll find something. 
Oh yeah, about the birthday boy. I really don’t know how a romantic celebration would be. Lol~
But for my last anniversary, I had a dinner at some restaurant. It wasn’t exactly a candle light dinner or something but the mood inside the restaurant is somehow romantic. 
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yeah. freaking expensive it is. :) nvm. my parents already told me not to worry about it. hehe.
hm.. about the birthday. I decided to bring him somewhere where there is fun. i just want to go crazy. and I dont want to mention about it here. let’s just see first. hehe… :p
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walaupn u cute n manis pkai tdung doesnt mean u ilhkas right? but i believe that someday u will do it sincerely. hurm.. about romantic??? what exactly this word means?? it is candle light dinner?? or about how u feel? so sad to tell that i’m older than u but still..huh! dont have this “momment” or mybe i just miss it.. btw keep update k (ur momment) haha.
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Wow, this is weird. I’m American so everyone’s parents like force them to go to college. My advice: DO IT! Just do it. Get it over with and then live your life how you want to after college. Do what you have to to get your education and then get out and live your life the way you want.
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well, it’s not easy to change, even i, is in process to become what my parent want…
bout ur cmmnt at my blog.. hurmm.. dunno lar.. I dont want to look desperate to know why is she missing in action for 2 days. N i dont want to force her. I’m thinking of giving her time to cool down. Perhaps i will give her a call in a few more days.. So, when r u going to start ur lesson at TOA?
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okay.. i miss out some part.. LOL..
ermm… I’m not sure, how about.. wait.. u said romantic right? ahakzx! I’m just thinking of giving u a suggestion - do fun activities such as play paintball? Haha..
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ah, nvm. I didnt want a romantic celebration. a fun one, most definitely. let’s see first la. huhu. and paintball is fun when you play with a lot of people. play with 2 people only is very expensive and you once you shot him, game over. no fun. heh.
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LOL.. missed that part! huhu… :D hurmm..
“i just want to go crazy”
“actually nak ajak gi tempat yg leh gila2 sikit baru seronok!”
something came across my mind! How bout going to the park? like at TS.. Genting perhaps?
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oh, I thought about that already. but he, apparently has a fear for height. therefore, he can’t get on a freaking roller coaster. I once rod on it 5 times in a row, no breaks in-between. I even had McD and went on the roller coasters, spinning whatever and everything turned out fine. yes, I’m a very tough girl. LOL.
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Hmm. Well, I can’t say much because I suppose I don’t know you that well (HAHA how many times have I said “well” already? ^^; ) and different people with different backgrounds tend to think differently, no? I think if you’re not comfortable with asking your parents for money, then don’t. =) RM200 a month is just about perfect for food and groceries and … hey wait, aren’t you gonna live at home anyway? =X But yeah, for me, art supplies and books take up most of my allowance. Next would be groceries. (I’m a crazy grocery shopper, ngaha.)
About their “conditions”… in a way I feel as if they’re bribing you (just… maybe I shouldn’t use the word “bribe”… but you get what I mean, right?), though I’m sure you understand they just want the best for you. ^_^ It’s … bribing for you to do good things, yeah. I think the best thing you could do is to surround yourself with the type of people you want to be like. Then it would be less of a burden/awkward feeling when you decide you want to change. I personally have a problem with item #2, haha, we only go to masjid for solat raya and stuff. =| And solat tarawikh at the college surau (which I sorely miss! Next Ramadhan I won’t be here anymore… T_T).
And I don’t think anybody would smack you (literally or metaphorically) about the hijab. =P It’s between you and God, right? And all humans could do is advise and take care of one another. =)
Reading the Qur’an as a habit… can be quite easy, especially when you read the translation as well. I can’t explain how awesome it is to read God’s words. You’ll learn to appreciate being Muslim and having this holy book and having access to all the help and guidance you’ll ever need… Just allocate a liiiitttle bit of time for those moments between you and God (ie. masa untuk beribadah, as agama-textbook-ish as that sounds =X ), it doesn’t even need half an hour of your day. ^^
Alright sorry if I sound preachy, I just tend to babble when I’m online, WHEN I’m supposed to be doing Further Maths. Dx May Allah help us all. C=
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well, for me, RM200 is not enough. Well, I dont spend it all every month, though. I spend them like every 2 or 3 months. I mostly spend my money on bags and shoes. and tops, jeans and accessories. and 200 allowance is not enough for all that. *sigh*
yes, I’m a materialistic person.
my parents always bribe us siblings. like when they first teach us to fast, they would give us 50 for anyone of us who fast for a month full. so, initially we were fasting for the sake of money. but now, of course, that has changed.
yeah, I’ve read the translations and yeah, it’s indescribably awesome. the words are breath taking and I think I would repent a lot sooner if I read them again. huhu~
and that’s okay about you babbling here. buat je macam blog sendiri. haha.
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LOL. “buat je macam blog sendiri” <– I do that wayyy to often in
people’s comment areas, it’s slightly embarrassing. -___-”
Anyway, thanks for considering doing a “light” version in the future~
=D You might wanna try designing with pure CSS (hardly any images),
it’s challenging but fun.
And yep, I totally understand the money thing. I personally would
never buy a $200 pair of jeans, but my friend really saved up and
bought hers, and wears it all the time and appreciates the quality and
everything. I’d rather buy one that’s a quarter of the price, despite
the fact that it probably won’t last as long and stuff like that. (I
outgrow clothes anyway. ^^) We have different priorities, huh? =P And
hey, my parents used to upah us yang puasa full too. =) And also
things like solat penuh, mengaji, etc. It’s just a way of training
kids, I’d say, as long as we know and realise the real reason (gosh
I’m on an alliteration streak) we actually performed all those things
as we grow older.
Okay I’m doing the babbling thing again. =X Byes!
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(By the way, so sorry for asking this, but would you consider “lightening” up your site a little bit, size-wise, maybe in the next layout? ^^; My utterly pathetic internet connection is completely incapable of loading your page until I switch networks about 6 times and hit Ctrl F5 about twice that often. =[ Not your fault at all, but kesian us hostel people, yeah? ^^;)
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oh? man… sorry about that. well, I might be able to make this happen. maybe I should make an option to switch to a lighter version. that will do the trick, I guess. we’ll see.
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salam….
…so…u say dat he afraid of height right so bring him to da place > rollercoster<..its not romantic right but at least u give him keyakinan on his birthday….who kow after diz he nt afraid of height 
actually i lebih tertarik kat part birthday some1
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Don’t choose a course for money girl. Choose what you love to do (based on this site, me think design etc.). And one advice, repent before it is too late. Life can never be too long. (and I am not that good either, just giving a nice advice.)
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Well, I did a lot of sins. A LOT, especially in just 3 months. but even so, I have no intention to repent anytime sooner. I will. but not now. I think I should look at this as the bright side. So, this is a start, then?
xtakut ke kalo ko mati seminit 2 lg ????? maklum la…kite xtau ble ajal kite kan ?? aku nasihatkn ko bukan sbb ape , malu la bace ayat2 ko…..mcm org yg xde pegangan
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