A preview.
On Friday, around 3 am, my dad got epilepsy attack. He was actually sick about a week ago. After he had a high fever about 10 days ago, he was going insane. He wasn’t himself, and he was having delusions. My guess was that he was dehydrated but he didn’t show any symptoms of extreme dehydration,other than the delusions.
That Friday morning, when he was having the attack, he was unconcious. That was the scariest moment in my life. My mum thought that our lives were going to change forever. That night, she was so disoriented, and she couldn’t get through my dad’s boss, (who’s also a best friend of his) and so, I called the ambulance.
Just when things couldn’t get any worse, the ambulance got lost (the ambulance came from a hospital in the neighbouring city). My mum was going crazy. Since we couldn’t afford to waste more time, I had to ‘pick up’ the ambulance and lead the way. The ambulance’s location was about 3 minutes away from my place. They tried to wake my dad up, but failed. My mum and my sister, Arina couldn’t stop crying. I was very afraid. I thought I was going to lose him. 
We’ve never seen anyone having epilepsy attack. My dad had never even got an epilepsy attack before, except, according to my grandma, when he was a child, after he had a very high fever.
Long story short. My dad was admitted into the Intensive Care Unit (ICU). He came conscious 12 hours later. I was home waiting for my mum’s call to go to the hospital. I skipped class because I knew I couldn’t concentrate, and I was so exhausted since I didn’t sleep the whole night.
The doctor said that it was:
- Dehydration
- Low Oxygen level
- Viral infection in the brain
- Epilepsy
I don’t know which one sounds scarier. The viral infection in the BRAIN or the Epilepsy.
That night, my sisters and I insisted on going to the hospital, but my parents didn’t let us so because they were worried that we might get lost. We still did, anyway because we just couldn’t wait. The visiting hours had ended. We didn’t care. I’ve called my friend earlier and asked him about the directions to the hospital because I’ve never even been to that place and I couldn’t understand the google map. Then again, I can’t understand any map. Not even the map in the shopping malls.
omigod. Am I THAT pathetic?
Anyways, we were very happy to see him that night. 
The next day after he woke up, he asked me to take a few photos of him in the ICU! And he made silly faces for the camera, before my mum told him not to do so. hahaha. He even made sure that the IV, the screen, and all those wires were visible in the picture. LOL. Seriously!
Me: *shows the picture*
Dad: aha! Good! good! ahahaha.
Me: ahahaha
Mum: quality control. haha
Dad: eh, I forgot my oxygen mask! Take another picture! *puts on the the oxygen mask*
Me: -____-”
Man, I love my dad.
(due to the technical problem, I couldn’t transfer the photos to my computer. too bad. ).
The good news is, my dad was transferred to the normal ward 2 days ago. Yeay! However, it was only until yesterday that he got a first class ward. He still has to stay in the hospital for two weeks, though. Fair enough.
Eventhough I have to chauffeur my mum and grandma back and forth, I don’t really mind. Although I have to juggle between my dad and my assignments, it’s worth it. Anything for love is worth is. Which reminds, me, what is love is all about. It seems like I have lost faith in love since…. uh… forget it. That’s another story. Anyways, I takes me 30 minutes to get there, and about one bloody hour to get home because of the ongoing construction shit. Damn it. I wish I could use those precious time to read but I can’t because a) reading in the car makes me feel dizzy b) I’m the freaking driver!
Driving is so tiring. I used to love driving. but now, I have a love-hate relationship with driving.
Then again, I have a lot of love-hate relationships with a lot of things. And someone.
My mum said to me that my dad was very proud of me. here are the reasons.
a)My quick response of dialing the emergency number.
b) I managed to get to the hospital without any problem
c) I’m helping my mum to send her to hospital and picking her up.
I was very flattered, but the truth is I got lost the first time I went there. 
I didn’t dare to tell that to my parents. That’s so not cool. 
So, whatever it is, I’m so very glad that my dad is now stable. I believe that everything happens for a reason and in this case, it made us realise how much we love dad and how much he loves us. 
It was also some kind of a preview of what’s going to happen if my dad didn’t recover. If things didn’t turn out to be a happy ending. Everything is going to fall apart. Happiness will be gone. My mum is going to be crazy. Well, the whole family is gonna be crazy. I know that death is inevitable, but for my dad, I can’t accept it if it’s too soon.
I wonder what would happen if I pass away. Not later, but around this time, when I’m still 18. Is there anyone who would actually miss me? What would Aida’s life going to be without me? How would you feel when I no longer update this blog?
What a long post. If you read until the end, congratulations. You should be proud of yourself. :)
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You have no bloody idea where you are in this virtual world, huh? This is a personal blog of a girl named Aisyah, a f*cking bitch, a hot babe and super materialistic. LOL, Just kidding! I'm actually pretty "innocent", and I like to blog. and poking people. and eat lotsa chocolates. Note: this lady on the left is not a Chinese auntie.
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My grandfather had heart attack few weeks ago and went thru permanent pacemaker operation.
and Aisyah,
alhamdulillah everything turns out to be ok there.
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oh? so is yout grandfather okay now? I hope he is.
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He is ok now. In fact he’s with us right now! Thanks for asking :)
anyway, what did I “review” u? your comments are always coming like err.. I don’t have any good analogy for that. like .. spam? perhaps?
I dont know but you got my point haha.
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I should have include “within a day or two, any of your post will be full of ‘em” on the above comment.
my bad my bad sorry.
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oh come on, you should see kennysia.com. now that is like ’spamming’. he gets comments every few minutes, even for his old posts! so, what the heck.
Alhamdulillah everything was okay,
for your question
“How would you feel when I no longer update this blog?”
real sad i guess?
^_^
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Aisya. I’m so sorry to hear about yr dad bt I’m glad that he is ok now.
Alhamdulillah.
I’m proud of u too babygirl! XD
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hmm.. sad to hear that from you.. well, aisyah, a congratulation from me too. i never had any of this situation, and i’m not sure do i capable to be calm in that moment. our parents are just too priceless compare to others.. sorry to hear about your dad.
aisyah, now you’re a big girl as what reflected from this event. send my regards to your dad, even he doesn’t know me, just say if came from a friend on the internet.
p.s: what happened to the camera? got no cable?
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thanks so much.
oh, the picture was taken using my camera phone. and i lost the cable. I’ve just figure out the bluetooth thingy. so maybe later.
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ok-ok. faster-faster, i want to see your cool dad’s face.
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Oh! I’m feel you. I’m glad ur dad is ok now..
yeah.. death is inevitable, we just can hope it will not come too soon..
You r a big girl now Aisyah! A big clap for you!
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My goodness, now that’s scary. Good to hear that he’s fine now.
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glad that everything is fine. :)
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Just wanted to let you know, lots of prayers are being sent your (and your family’s) way. :) I’m so thankful your dad is fine. It’s true, we all need a reminder once in a while…
And, your dad rocks. =D
Oh, I’ve also thought about what will happen if I die tomorrow. Like, nobody knows my passwords; who’s gonna make the announcements and the blog or deviantart; how would my online friends even know what happened?! =\ Scary thing to think about, man…
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hoho. he’s always like that. huhu.
yeah, I pun wonder camtu gak. even when my account is suspended, no one would know what happened. how sad. my sis knows my passwords for most accounts, but still i’m not sure what would she do with it. maybe she’ll delete my myspace and facebook acc for me? IDK. *Shrugs*
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That’s life…
Tak semestinya hari2 ceria..
Semoga beliau akan kembali seperti sedia kala
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Sounds like you had a rough time but I’m proud of you. You managed to be strong during this whole ordeal. Judging from this whole blog and how you handled everything, you’re truly remarkable. I can’t imagine how I would have been. I’m glad your Dad is doing much better now. Your Dad is so cool though. I can’t believe he made you take pictures. Hehe.
Death is hard to accept but lately I’ve learnt to accept it. I lost both my aunt and best friend (he was 18) within July. It’s hard to accept death when someone is very young though. Sometimes I think about the same questions you asked.
Anyways, as for your question. I went to vacation in Tobago. It’s in the Caribbean. Take care love.
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oh my, shen. you are very generous with all those words.
hm.. I know what you mean about ppl who die at such young age, ie, our age. I don’t have a vocab to describe that feeling but since you know how it feels like, I don’t have to say it then.
Tobago? I’m, adding that into my places to visit wishlist.
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This post really touched me because i had a worst nightmare last night about my dad. I woke up crying like hell. :’(
p/s : hope uncle Rozi sihat :)
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yeah. En. Rozi semakin sihat. huhu
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Azima pegi makan kat Kedai Kopi malam ahad eh? Pakai baju kunen. Ngahahaha.
Sori Aisyah, iklan jap.
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nice.he made it
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Hopefully your dad will get much better in time, InsyaAllah. Any good sons or daughters would do the same
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whoa!
i always been ur silent reader.. but somehow dis post touched me.. i love my dad so much.. n if the same thing happen 2 me.. i would die.. literally..
u stay strong.. well, everything happen 4 a reason..
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Perkara² yg tak diduga mcm ni biasa berlaku. apa yg perlu kita buat adalah sedia kan diri sentiasa untuk sebarang kebarangkalian. tawakkal dan redha padaNya.
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Syukurlah semuanya selamat..Anyway, memang ada hikmahnya semua yang berlaku tuh..sekurang-kurangnya, ingatkan kita bahawa sementara ayah dan ibu masih hidup, sayangilah diorang sebetulnya.
Maybe kita sebagai anak kadang-kadang terlepas pandang kat diorang masa kita membesar ni, tapi harap lepas nih u lebih menghargai parent u..
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yep. and I also think twice before I do something that I know my parents won’t like. before, i tak fikir langsung pun. heh.
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baguslah macam tu..best wishes for your dad and family..
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if you pass away, maybe aida will take over this blog. HEhe..
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haha. good thinking.
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i hope your dad will get better soon.
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goshh! alhamdullilah everything went well..
ermm… i can’t accept losing my dad too. coz he’s everything for me, now :(
who’s gonna take care over me if dia takda. uwaaaaa
im so scared~
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its good to hear your dad is okay.still funny walaupun dah masuk ICU.he’s a great man,im sure.
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i do impressed with your father reaction after he woke-up. take a few pictures and i bet with his beautiful smile right? he definitely is a cool guy
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Oh wow!!!! I’m sorry to hear about your dad!! =( I’m glad that he’s stable now, though! And I hope that nothing really bad will happen now! GOOD LUCK!
Oh, and that’s awesome about your parents being proud of you! =)
Oh, and the thought about you passing away… Yeah, I have that every now and then, and wondering what would happen and all… =/
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That’s scary. I’m glad he’s okay.
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I’m glad your dad is fine now.
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yeah. everyone shall taste the death.
but pray for a longer life.
as long as you have life, live it =>
I pray for u and ur family. peace.
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Aisyah, semoga ayahanda sihat segera ye. I was going to ask you if you’re going to Layar Tanchap this Saturday, but I guess that’s inappropriate now. You’re probably going to take care of your dad at the hospital,right?
Aisyah the responsible eldest ‘kakak’. =D You go girl.
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this saturday? hm.. i can arrange that. =P
maybe kot? ;D
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Oh well if you’re going, it’s 2pm until midnight, cuz its merdeka-themed. Dengar cerita banyak aktiviti. Maybe I’ll see you there.. But I’m gonna stay mysterious
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aisyah, care to post an update about your dad?
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i know what you’ve been through. the same thing happened to our family 2 years ago. hopefully everything will go well for you *hugs*
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All the best for your father . And congrats Aisyah coz you not a panic kind of person. It’s such a scariest night for your family..
Which hospital ah? Hospital Tengku Ampuan Rahimah, Klang ? Or Shah alam medical centre?
HTAR = Sick of klang road, berbelit2. I was once go there.. visiting my anak sedara, mmg susah gak nak pergi sebab.. jarang benar pegi jalan-jalan ke klang.. :D
BTW.. Now klang is JAKARTA 2
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wow what a preview! that was scary!
a get well soon for your dad from me, and i know how u feel, i just lost my grandma last week, but yeah i just recovered from the sadness last monday
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this is the first time i came here. just don’t be sad. i’ll give you my pray to all of your family and your dad. Alfatihah. Amin
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Luckily he safe now…
Just have a little faith in everything even though it not so convincing….
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“anything for love is worth it”
that is so true (!!!)
i lost my dad when i’m 19 *sob*sob*. i hope your dad is okay. take a good care of him, okay.
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Awww.. I hope your dad is alright now. I don’t know what I would do if I were you. I don’t think I’m strong enough to be able to handle everything that you’ve gone through. I’m proud of you girl.
(Oh man, I feel so immature right now). My dad had once been hospitalized due to his hypertension and my mum didn’t even let me know about it till my father was discharged from the hospital (I was in Jakarta that time). I guess they must have thought all along that I would definitely get worried too much till I wouldn’t be able to concentrate on my study.
I love my dad too!! *hugs him*
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aww…. biasalah tu. your parents taknak u ourt of focus. and oh, if you were in my situation, I’m sure you’ll do good too.
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hi jiran..ya allah!!! u..i sgat terkejut ok about ur dad..kesian uncle rozi..btw i bukak u punya blog cos nak tgok u punya blog..i kne wat blog..adoyai..my friends semua puji u punya blog..xreti ar..dis friday i balik..bley ar mandi swimming pool kat rumah u ajak ar ima n syad..heheh..
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tak yah la mandi swimming pool..kesian uncle rozi..cancel..cancel..
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hei babe..i’m glad that he is okay now…send my regards to your family..xoxoxo
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yeah..thanks god he’s fine. i alwiz read ur blog, but dun have any idea to leave a comment.. :)
me also can’t wait to see those photo uploaded in this blog.. 
but this post was so touchy and as for me u’re so tough for a girl at the of 18 years old..! and ur dad are so cool..for asking u to take his photo in the ICU
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