The Real Me
There is no humour in this post. You have been warned.
You can never truly know someone until meet him/her in person. You don’t know someone just because you always chat with that person online. You can never know who they are and what are they capable of through the internet.
I don’t know about you, but that’s what I think.
You think you know me? You can never know who I really am, what am I capable of and what I’ve been through. All you see in this blog are all the happy faces of me with my friends.
from left: Syad, Aisyah, Syida, Azima
from left: Azima, Asma and Aisyah
from left: Azima and Aisyah
from left: Aisyah and Amirah
from my blog, you wouldn’t know that
Rozi is actually my dad’s name.
I actually have 5 siblings. All you have ever heard is about Aida. And I’m the eldest.
I can’t stand the blazing sun because it gives me headache, everytime.
Ironically, I like sports and had trained under the blazing sun.
I’m still wearing my retainer.
I don’t have a perfect complexion.
I always have a bad hair day and I hate my hair.
I don’t always look pretty. I don’t always put on my make up and comb my hair.
I really do think that I have the biggest ass and the widest thighs. (haha)
I was a totally different person one time in my life.
I’m not always happy like what you see around here.
then again, who doesn’t?
mum said that I was almost perfect,
but that’s because they don’t know the truth.
I’ve failed my parents a lot. and made them proud at the same time.
rebellious kid, they say. ganas hatinya
I used to prioritize my family
but now, I don’t know what are my priorities.
maybe I should just focus on studying. be professional. no feelings involved.
sometimes, being heartless seems easier.
hopefully, you won’t get heartache.
I’m self-centered,
I’m stubborn,
I’m harsh,
I’m fierce.
You wouldn’t know how insecure I am. and how secure I was.
You wouldn’t know that my heart is broken
broken into tiny little pieces that I even myself can’t mend it.
maybe the last piece of it is still stuck at a place it doesn’t belong to.
from my blog, you wouldn’t know that I cry myself to sleep every night.
I show a little of myself here, but some of you think that you know everything about me just because you read all of my posts on this blog. And I don’t always say witty things, like all of you say.
This is the real me. The real Aisyah Rozi.
bed head. people say it’s the ugliest, but I think it’s the prettiest because it’s authentic.
and this isn’t a poem. if it is, then it’s not a good one.
Disclaimer: Do not tell me to cheer up because I always do.
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You have no bloody idea where you are in this virtual world, huh? This is a personal blog of a girl named Aisyah, a f*cking bitch, a hot babe and super materialistic. LOL, Just kidding! I'm actually pretty "innocent", and I like to blog. and poking people. and eat lotsa chocolates. Note: this lady on the left is not a Chinese auntie.
SCHLEEEEEEEPYYYYYY FACE!
Finally your biodata without having to browse your “Myspace”.
I thought you’re dating bong today?
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About Me:
Aisyah Rozi
what am I up to?
That’s how the ‘about me’ section looks like in my myspace profile. Hahaha.
and… where did you get that? I’m still in my pajamas.
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nie pessal tetibe entri emo nie?
hayoo…
ei, you got through for the uitm intake or not?
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she manage to get the offer.. but went to TOA if im not mistaken.
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saya pun manusia, kan?
oh, uitm? I got it. but I went to TOA.
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herm.. u’re right.
people seems to judge us by its cover..
and some only looks at half of the cover it self..
yeah. we don’t know you as you do know your self..
so, here come the beautiful of friendship, where we tried to understand each other as much as possible..
btw, i think what your mum said is quite true..
for them, your are almost perfect, as no one ever perfect..
they love you, and thats why that told you that you were almost perfect..
the last photo is a-cute-bed-head-face..
that is what i thought of..
as it is the pure face of you : no emotion and makeups..
maybe others will be different.
hehe..
anyhoo..
you supposedly enrolled last week, aite?
good luck in University life!
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thank you, Abdusfauzi for your lovely comment.
and yeah, that’s a ‘pure’ face of me. hahah.
and yeah, I enrolled last week, I didn’t get the chance to blog about it. maybe later.
but that was just the orientation. my first class starts tomorrow! wee! xD
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haha..
‘Jom Kembali Ke Sekolah’!
hik hik..
p/s: i only have 2 classes for this semester. 1 on wednesday, and 1 on thursday. huhu. not to forget, only 1 final paper.. yeeha!!
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aku ada satu polisi yang aku pegang sejak ada mohdismail.net, perkara peribadi yang tidak serunuk adalah tidak serunuk untuk di’kongsi di’blog..
kisah sedih, kisah duka, sakit hati, kecewa semua perlu kita luahkan kepada org2 yang betul2 care tentang diri kita.. pembaca blog hanya kenal mungkin 0.1% dari diri sebenar kita..
so Aisyah, teruskan post entry2 yang menyeronokkan..
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ye, betul tu Mail. sebab tu la saya jarang ceritakan kisah hidup yang oh-so-tragic tu. hahah. (tragic la sgt.
)
and… kisah suka duka saya pun, saya jarang ceritakan even pada orang yang betul2 care. maybe I do, but not the whole story. saya tak mahu mereka dgr kisah pathetic. bukan nye seronok pun. heh.
and thanks, I will continue writing so-called interesting posts. huhu.
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Mail selebriti blog yg popular.
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i’m prefer the true color of you..
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ah.. the angsty, nobody-loves-me phase.. everybody went through that.. *pats Aisyah*
uhm, ok, serious
cheer up, girl. it’s okay to cry. and when you think you’ve had enough, say, “saya kuat!!”
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haha. yeah, it’s the teenage angst phase. but not the nobody-loves-me phase. because I know that my parents, my siblings and my friends love me.
and, Oh MK. I’m always cheered up. dem. lupa nak letak disclaimer. hahah.
and.. it’s painful. but I don’t know why am I addicted to the pain. damn.
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good, good.. we all love you too ^^
addicted to the pain? is that some kind of masochist or what
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HAHAHA! nooo!
‘hahaha. funny la u.
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haha. everybody can act on the net lah.
esp those streotype people.
HEY! i love the way azima jump on the picture. *kool²*
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yep, that’s what I meant.
hahahah. mari sama2 lompat begitu. hahah.
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aiyak.meMalukan jump like that
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Hey, no lah. It makes you look like emm, so energatic. yeah, energatic. hehe
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Huhuhu.. Muka baru bangun tido.. Real n natural beauty..
Panjanglah biodata nak baca…
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i love your long hair laaa
i cut my long hair.. skrg saya menyesal
haha. saya pun stubborn jugak. stubborn gila.
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i feel you, babe. last time, i regret that i cut my hair, cause I wanted to get it permed. i know, im weird. now, have to wait for it to grow some more. haiyaa.
and sep! kita sama2 stubborn. nak jugak that hot guy! hahahah.
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You sound pretty down, Aisyah =( Cheer up!
These things are the same with every blogger, of course. Sans some people, most people never type what they truly feel; I definitely don’t. Everything I type is crapshit, really. I mean, from my blog, you’d think I love to eat and that food is my obsession. It. Is. Not. I just like talking about food. That’s all.
I agree with you on your last photo. You can see a person truly when they don’t pose or anything, when they’re just taken a picture of. You can see their true expression, and not the forced smile most photos contain. You can see all the imperfections there, bare, and not covered up like they usually are in pictures.
No one can ever know anything truly online, but sometimes they CAN have fun pretending. After all, life is a hard thing to live through.
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I think people can only see as much as we let them see. They only know what we let them know. And if they think they know everything after that tiny crumb of info they saw, then they’re wrong, aren’t they?
That said, I’ve always assumed that Rozi is your dad’s name.
Hehe. And some people like big a**es and thighs, just appreciate what you have. :)
Muka-baru-bangun-tido rocks.
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yes, Aneesah. very well said, I agree with you. damn, you can never truly know someone if they don’t let you. it’s surprising to find the dark little secret of that person. or anyone, for that matter.
oh? you do? wow. hahah. because Rozi pretty much sounds like a girl’s name. haha.
muka bgn tido rocks? hahaha. kool la kamu, aneesah. huhu
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Hmm, maybe kalau Rosie or Rosy confirm memang girl’s name la, but Rozi can go both ways. :)
Yea, kalau rambut gravity-defying tercacak lagi rocks. XD (Short hair tends to do that in the mornings. :T )
Keep up the entries! It’s good to have variety, everybody has their emo days…
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One more thing — it said “please wait a comment” when it was submitting the comment just now… :o Does it mean to say “wait a moment”? Or “minute” or something…? ^^;
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hehe. i think it’s supposed to be, moment. i noticed it sometime already. but have to go through the plugin files to edit it. maybe later, when I have the time, and the mood to open up dreamweaver. hahah.
It sounds like you’ve been through a pretty rough patch in life. I’m glad that you didn’t go much into the details because it’s safer to keep those personal experiences out of strangers’ prying eyes :) but I really hope that you’ve feeling better after writing this post - at least you’ve made use of your blog as an outlet for your feelings, and not let it pent up inside you until you suffer a really serious case of emotional breakdown. I know how damaging can it for one to contain their feelings instead of releasing it - I’m glad that you did, since it’ll definitely make you feel better.
Everyone wants to show their happy, cheerful side to others - and it’s perfectly normal to write only about happy stuff on your blog, no worries about that. I don’t see it as a fake facade or a masquerade - it’s just normal for someone to hide their feelings because, seriously, it’s very personal and sensitive stuff. I’m actually glad that you can share your happy times with your readers and not rant about bad hair days all the time - I did it from time to time, but decided not to do it too frequently after I realized that it’s wrong to make my readers read through my complains and whining all the time.
I’ve been through one of the hardest times of my life - it was when I was in college. I said something wrong, and tried to appease others but sadly enough, most of my peers rejected me as passed me off as an insensitive and inconsiderate person. Then I’ve tried very hard to change myself for the better - but I realized later that after changing myself to someone I couldn’t even recognize in the mirror, my friends still refuse to accept me. At that very moment I felt the whole world turning their back against me - and I knew for the very first time why people would lose their senses and risk their lives by standing at the edge of a 6-storey high balcony. Yes, I really did thought of suicide. Eventually I convinced myself that if I die, nobody would really mourn after my death but would throw a big party instead - and so I stepped back from the balcony and spent the whole night crying at the rooftop until it’s morning. It may sound surreal and dramatic, but I can really feel how is it like to be the bottom of your life - it is just horrible, repulsive and disgusting. Sometimes you’ll end up hating yourself for everything you’ve done, everything you’ve said.
But then I seek solace from a few close friends who helped me - they’re really nice. As well as spending nights alone convincing myself that it’s just my peers who didn’t want to accept me - not the whole world. And I have really changed for the better since then, so something good actually came out of it :)
I hope you’re feeling better know, after sharing my personal experience with you. Take care, and huggs. Tomorrow will be better, so let’s hold on for better days.
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well, I’m actually going through the phase that everyone hates. and i really am not comfortable telling my life stories here. even now, i feel like keeping this entry private. hahaha. but nvm, i can have some varieties in my entries. emo, happy, boring or just plain pointless. hahah.
i think when making people to read complaints about life will spoil their mood, and i dont want to do that. atleast, i could make someone laugh/smile once in his/her miserable day. :)
consider this is a good dead. hehe.
aww… teddy. it sounded like you had rough college years. but i’m glad that you learned about somethings. and i do know what you mean about hating yourself for what you’ve said or done. but for me, i try to think that what’s done is done. the more important thing is now and the future.
and Teddy, I actually do feel better after reading your comment. sorry for the delayed reply. i didn’t know what to say. i was speechless after the first time of reading your comment.
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Don’t worry Aisyah - everybody is not perfect, we are just human. I know, because I am one too.
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cheer up aisyah! Chaiyok!
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I really feel for u aisyah!
bcoz some part of it.. is exactly just like me..
frankly, I’m not good in expressing my feeling..
I’m too messy to define my feeling..
and I know, there is no way I could write a post like this bcoz I always feel like words cant say much what is in my heart and me.. complicated~
p/s: i’m still wearing my retainer too..
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Tiada orang yang sempurna segala-galanya.Kita semua hanyalah manusia yang sering kali melakukan kesilapan.walau bagaimana pun , setiap orang mempunyai kelebihan tersendiri termasuk Aisyah sendiri.fikir-fikirkanlah.
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erm, why with the emo lar? i was shocked a little hehe :P now let me guess where’s the last piece of you.. urm, bawah katil dah cari? atas almari? oh perhaps kat dapur kut?
happy-go-lucky-turned-emo *huh?*
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erm… I know where it is. but, let’s just leave it there. hahah.
hahaha. I’m not that emo la. atleast, not now. maybe just for a while, when I was posting this entry. *shrugs*
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People go around judging individuals by what they see on the outside or physical appearance. Little do they know what’s beneath that layer of skin. Most of us has a smile on our face but behind that smile is a world of problems and burdens upon our shoulders. There are many times I may come across as happy in my blogs but little to anyone know the truth about me or what I’m feeling at that time.
I tend to isolate my private life when I post my blogs. It’s something I prefer to keep to myself or my close friends.
PS. I think you have an amazing complexion as well as hair. It’s gorgeous love! Everyone has rough patches in their lives and it’s the downs that make us a better and stronger individual.
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u never truly know a guy until you be with him for at least 24 hours straight.
A guy can be a “oh, sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeet” fella like for the whole 14 hours, but the remaining hours act like a f**king jerk.
I have seen some of those species, and lots of many others.
this is no advise or what, but just my observation and experience that if studied or researched by some college kids, I believe it will become a fact
neway what’s TOA?
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“A guy can be a “oh, sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeet” fella like for the whole 14 hours, but the remaining hours act like a f**king jerk.”
I SO agree with you. in just a blink, they can change. damn damn damn. kentot tul. hahah.
TOA = the one academy. google it, baby!
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toldcha. Anyway I am guy as well, so you meant “you guys” instead of they?
I see. I thought TOA was some girls code or something. I googled TOA tho but for nothing related. Thanks for clearing it up. Congrats on that! That surely deserve a MacPro isn’t?
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hahahaha. i can’t just stereotype all guys, can I?
Wow. BUT, I do understand what you’re talking about, because that’s probably how most, if not all, people are online. You TOTALLY cannot tell how a person is JUST from online. I know. I know that nobody online truly knows 100% me. So yeah, I do know what you mean. Oh, and it does sound kind of like a poem. Hehe.
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Si Aisyah ni pun dah boleh dikira selebriti blog gak..
setanding redmummy ….
tgk berapa ramai tinggal komen..
Kalau zool ligakampung buat pasal ‘about me’ mesti tak lebih 10 komen..
Tapi apahal pun masing2 ada cara sendiri….
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aisyah = blog selebrity?
HAHAHA. itu kelakar.
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haha, now we are step closer knowing aisyah
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congratulations!
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I really like the way you wrote about yourself.
I gotta agree that we can never truly know someone until we meet him/her in person. Even my friends don’t really know who I am actually. Let alone the people who have never actually met me in person. Most of the time, I keep everything to myself. Selfish it may sound but somehow, I have this feeling that I’m not such an importance to be bothered by others. Ah, damn. I do sound like a psycho, don’t I? 
Takut tak? Takut tak? Hehe. 
Muka baru bangun tido. Hehe. You look lovely hun!
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oh? thanks. huhu.
I wish I could know you in person, because u look like a very kind person. (I’m assuming that from your blog and your comments. hopefully, you won’t turn out to be a psycho or anything. heheh)
muka bgn tido itu lovely? haha. memang. mari ramai2 post muka baru bgn tido. tgk sape paling ori. haha. kalau ada air liur basi lagi la kool. HAHA! ok, kidding.
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I look kind but deep inside me, I’m not.
Hahaha.. *evil laugh* JK JK. Yeah, a lot of ppl told me that but I’m not that all innocent. They thought that I would never ever get angry, they thought I wouldn’t mind if they do this and that to me. But I’m just like any other normal human being. I just don’t show them the utter truth that lies inside. Hypocrite? Don’t think so. This is me. Oppss. sorry dear. Sy telah melampau plak. entri ini adalah tentang anda, bukan saya. hehehe.. :-D
LOL! You’re so funny. I bet mine is going to be the worst. Damn ugly la.
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they thought that you’d never get angry? how weird. hahah. I ni garang. takut la, takut la. hahah.
A common mistake that people make is really thinking that people know someone just from reading their site and that sort of thing. Gawd, if people online met me in real life I think they would be devastatingly disappointed, ha ha.
I wish I could write about myself as well as you write about yourself. It truly is a gift.
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yeah. its sooooo true aisya! ;DD
our blog is just like 10% of our 100% super-duper-cooool-sometimes gloomy-life.
people out there,
they think they knw us, but it happens to be that they dont knw us that muchhhhh. rite?
“You can never truly know someone until meet him/her in person. You don’t know someone just because you always chat with that person online. You can never know who they are and what are they capable of through the internet.”
yeah, ure right. they may wear a mask. hahhaha. mengarut gila aku di sini. bt hey, its true.
and we cant just simple meetup with our cyber chat unless we knw that they’re not the fake one or myb spam. keh8
p/s: hey i just knw that ure my uncle’s customer. ;DD i mean, fr where you bought ths .com =)
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oh? and i just found out that you’r the niece. hahaha.
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Even if this is one of those most used lines, “nobody is perfect.” In my blog people know too that I am happy and I blog stuff that I really want to share but not all.
I don’t blog everything even if I own a lot of blogs. I used to be a child who doesn’t want to study and is already satisfied with a passing grade or a nearly failing grade. 
I changed when i graduated high school since it is the source of my failure but my parents never knew about it.
I hate the sun’s heat too makes me dizzy and causes me headache.
I am not a girly-girl more of the sporty style. I can be heartless and a not-in-th-mood type, snobbish and there came a time that I wished I had the powers to kill people who hate me and people I hate. 
There are still leftovers of my past attitudes within me so I still cannot say what could happen. But at the present I am currently satisfied. 
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being heartless seems easier
>yes,it is easier…
n i like the pic,bcause it is the real you…buruk mca mane p0nn…gmba tu tetap vainnnn ok!;)
npe u ckp rmbut bur0k?rebonding ape!;)
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haha. dem. rebonding shit. dem.
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babe… i miss you.
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waa i p0nn!!!!waaa!
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gambar last tu baru bangun tido ek?
ingtkan nangis..hee~
ai azima!!
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hahaha. sejak bila plak i nangis? hahaha.
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haiiii. haha
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haha. ok. we’re fair enough tho. ;))
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*pat pat*
You’re just pushing yourself too hard. Anyway, if you need a friend to pour out to whether in words or tears, let me know and I’ll read it over MSN or listen to it over the phone if you’d like to tell me about it.
Can never stand a girl just crying it out alone…
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aisyahhhh EMOOOO!hahaha, and i freaking hate u sebab u bru bgn tido pun still lawa and u mmg lawaaaaa!HATE U! haha
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well at least i knew u have 5 sibs and u’re the oldest hahaha
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It’s true that people don’t know the real your from reading just a few posts and I find it amusing as to how some people easily fall into that web that they know you just by picking up a few words on a post.
Humnas are complex and I don’t think it would takes one post or two, and about me, random facts, ect. to explain their rntire lives, who and what they are, y0u know?
meh, I don’t make sense perhaps. eh.
take care man
~tootles
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Congrat for the TOA!
Bad day, is common when getting xlder!
I guess we should blame the moon for moving to fast! or may be someone else… another human maybe.
(this not a political statement ok)
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isn’t it us who’s responsible of what’s happening to us? why blame others, or the moon, the time?
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then u got my answer…
Other’s are just excuse
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You’re not alone … that’s for sure but I always though from reading your blog you lived this happy life lol
I have been through hell
… when my little brother died; my entire family was on its feet and a lot of verbal fights and bewilderments. On my blog all write is what good happens in my life and the bad/ugly stuff won’t make it … I want to change that and I think what you wrote is prefect and example to others.
Best wishes
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more acrobatic style should be try. hahaah really nice swimming pool you got.
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I agree with you lol..”we can never truly know someone until we meet him/her in person”..
but sometimes, kte juga xtau sape diri kte sbnarnye(our weakness n ability) kn kn??..sometimes we r happy,but its true we r happy or just pretend to be happy..what u think??
btw..lu pikir la sndri(bak kte Nabil)..hahha
about ur “pure” face pic..nmpk cm de “peta” je kt muke 2..hahaha
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opss..ade tambahan skit..hehe
i dun get it what P.CREW means..”girl will know guy after meet 24h straight”..wooo sounds crazy..haha
but i dun think so..even org y dh kawin btahun2 sampai dh de cucu pn kadang2 xtau knl pasangn dorg..eh2 bkn xknl lansung tp x brape nk knl r..tul x??tul kn..anguk2…huahaha
p/s:about 1st comment dun take seyes..hehe
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hi boleh berkenalan tak..
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orang kata kalau nak tau kecantekan seseorang itu yang sebenar, tengok la masa baru bangun tidor. Nampaknya Aisyah cantek.
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