These past few days, I’ve been feeling so weak, mentally. I haven’t been able to work hard on making clothes, partially because I’m bored of drafting and I need a sewing mannequin so badly so that I can drape the clothes instead. Also, I am so frustrated with myself because I feel like I have lost my skills, and I feel like I can’t do anything. I feel like I don’t want to do anything. I don’t want to go to Melbourne. I don’t want to work. I just, want to do what I love to do. Like, painting and making clothes. and then, there’s self conflicts. But no point going there, I don’t want to be judged or anything.
I thought about deferring my degree to Sept intake but my husband said I should just go for March intake and then I’ll be done by December. But.. I don’t know. I feel like I should be ready for it.
Gosh. I’m so complicated I can’t even make sense out of this. Maybe it’s just one of those days. I hope it’ll pass very soon.