Hi, my name is Aisyah Rozi. This is my personal blog where I share my life experience, thoughts, ideas and occasionally, my projects. Recently, however, I share a lot about being a young mother. I'm also a YouTuber, so do checkout my channel! <3
Dec 24 2011

*sigh

These past few days, I’ve been feeling so weak, mentally. I haven’t been able to work hard on making clothes, partially because I’m bored of drafting and I need a sewing mannequin so badly so that I can drape the clothes instead. Also, I am so frustrated with myself because I feel like I have lost my skills, and I feel like I can’t do anything. I feel like I don’t want to do anything. I don’t want to go to Melbourne. I don’t want to work. I just, want to do what I love to do. Like, painting and making clothes. and then, there’s self conflicts. But no point going there, I don’t want to be judged or anything.

I thought about deferring my degree to Sept intake but my husband said I should just go for March intake and then I’ll be done by December. But.. I don’t know. I feel like I should be ready for it.

Gosh. I’m so complicated I can’t even make sense out of this. Maybe it’s just one of those days. I hope it’ll pass very soon.

3 comments

  • My darling wife, dont bust your head over tedious matter. Get the mannequin and go finish your study. It’s another one more year and you’re done with schooling for your entire life. After this, fuel your passion and think what’s best for you. Only fortunate people gets money doing what they like most, and I’m pretty sure you’re one of them but you need to be hardworking.

    Whatever it is, do know that I will always have your back 😉

    Reply
  • 🙂 Chill Aisyah! Us ladies do tend to whine and wonder and think and complain and then whine again, but that’s just the way we figure things out, right? ^^ Kadang2 benda yang kecik Allah jadikan nampak besar, for what reason? Maybe so that we’ll finally turn to Him for guidance? I have such a bad habit of leaving the do’a and mintak tolong from Allah only when I can’t seem to find a solution on my own. Tak ke pelik, padahal He’s the one with all the answers. =(

    Things are not bad as it seems! You’re so very blessed, mashaAllah, just keep going.

    Reply

Leave a Reply to Edwin Masripan

*Email will NOT be published

Go Top